03 jan 02
i have the fortunate and unfortunate ability to emotionally cut myself off from a person. i think it’s both sad and useful that i can do this. i wish i didn’t have to. sometimes it saves me pain, i suppose, but sometimes i think i should feel pain. sometimes i think that feeling pain would be good for me. i definitely feel pain more than i used to.
i would like to get to a point where i don’t have to use that skill anymore, and i can just absorb it and process it and be done with it, instead of insulate myself against it.
i think i need some good, female companionship. reassurance.
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if there is anything funnier than Bron doing his impressions of Scout (”he couldn’t believe i… i couldn’t believe…”) or the Wisconsin guy (”i’m aboot to give ya a taste a WisCAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANsin”), i don’t think i’ve heard it. except maybe Ryan’s Mr. Friesen (”so moist”).