08 nov 01
i’m blank, empty, motionless, bored, alone, tired, lethargic, quiet, angry, confused, and unhappy.
that homework sure looks important.
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i turned on the TV tonight and the Bulls were losing to the T’Wolves, 105-46. uhh, yeah.
well anyway, i finally had a productive night. the first in weeks. this was extremely important, because i was about to go insane — no, really. it’s hard to explain, but my mood is so strongly tied to my sense of productivity that it borders on ridiculous. but anyway, i’m trying to get my shit together, trying to make up for the “lost” last few weeks. i even made myself a homework schedule tonight… hrm.
things have been so up and down this past week. it reminds me a bit of last october/november, which was a horrible time for me. sometimes i have a ton of energy, and i can’t even sit still for a few minutes. i often get really, really angry when i’m in this state. other times, i’m blank, lethargic, and down. and sometimes i’m balanced, like right now.
with the help of this here jotsheet, i look back on the past couple of weeks and realize how important it is for me to have a regimen. i have to exercise, eat right, and get work done, otherwise i become horribly unhappy and out-of-sorts. i guess this is just something i have to work at…