june 26, 2001
this feeling sucks. it really does. can i be more aimless than this? i need direction. i need a destination. at this point, i have nothing.
i am hesitant to even go to BA. it takes energy to be there: to be social, to be sociable, etc. it sounds pathetic, but right now (at this moment, anyway; who knows about tomorrow morning) i just want to be alone and away from people. seems like that’s the only situation in which i could find some direction. then again, i’m probably just fooling myself. but please, save me the speech telling me that. save me the pep talk. eh?