@2001.05.02
ugh. what a shitty day. i worked from 1:00pm until close (~9:30ish, though I sped out of there at about 9:07), and i was dying to get out of there the entire day. the weather outside is beautiful, and i am SICK OF PUTTING OUT DVDs, CDs, AND VHS TAPES! hot damn, this shit gets boring.
so anyway, i was trying to decide what i am supposed to learn from this job. not the minutia of CC rules and regulations and products, mind you, but what place this has in the grand plan, if ya know what i mean. today, todd northcutt, the district manager (or DM to you fellow CC hosers), was in the store. evidently, everyone (including the lowly “sales specialists” — that’s my title) takes this as their queue to finally start trying to follow the rules. it’s as if there’d been a substitute teacher in class for months and now, the old and knowing teacher has returned. well, fuck that. i mean, gimme a break. i don’t care whether we are following regulations about “planograms,” “endcaps,” and other crap like that. so why do other people care? i’m not sure, honestly. i imagine that a good chunk of it has to do with them wanting to keep the managers happy (and keep their jobs). but it’s more than that. i think that maybe they want to feel knowledgable in a “system,” and believe me, the myriad
rules and regulations of Circuit City constitute a system. maybe it gives them a feeling of belonging, and of power? i’m not sure.
i can understand their point. problem is, i’ve got to find a “system” that i really buy into — one that i believe in and want to work for. so far, the only such system has been the Academy, the school i attended for senior year of HS. but i think i understand the power of a system. you get a feeling of togetherness and strength when you work together with a group of people toward a common goal. if i can find such a system in which to work (as a career), i think i’ll be fairly far down the path of satisfaction with my job.